There are THREE sides to a story!?
We asked two parents, a man and a woman (who are part of the www.theseparationexchange.com TRIBE) – What someone can expect right after separating, the good the bad, the ugly and the reality. While people say it is not the easiest time to live through, it does get better with time according to these two. Everyone is different and we all have a different story to tell, but hopefully this will give a little insight from both sides of the sexes as what to expect in the first few moments after separation.
Who did we ask:
Zoe 33 (Anonymous input, Divorced mum of 2 young kids)
Ben Dillon-Smith 40 ish (Author, www.thesingledadjourney.com, Separated Dad of Jethro: 10 years)
1. What are the top three emotions/feelings you experienced JUST after separating?
Is that an emotion? Sadness, Anger, Loneliness…… mix and repeat. These three would come one after the other, with a good dose of confusion while you try and contemplate all the practical and logistical elements of what comes with separating. This is when you really need a good friend or two.
Overwhelmed, Disbelief, Fear, Loneliness
Overwhelmed at where my life was, disbelief (that my Ex cheated after a lifetime together), and the FEAR about the future alone. Trying to cope with the weight of managing everything alone took time to get used to, but then the realisation that I was actually doing it myself anyway gave me more confidence that I COULD do it! I spent many days just crying after the kids were in bed! BUT it did get better!
2. What are the top items on your list that you felt you had to figure out first?
So how does this Tinder thing work. Ha…. Ok so that was way down the list.
It was a mix of all the practical living arrangements – where to live? The list goes on. BUT the main one for me was the realisation that before separating, I could see my child whenever I wanted, and to a degree you take that for granted. Now, I was going to have some form of restrictions placed around that, and that hurt more than anything. My main focus was to make work out an agreement of equal, shared custody. I could not imagine being a weekend dad. I know for some it’s just what works out as the most logistical with work commitments, but I wanted to work out how I could make 50/50 work.
The second was finding and creating a new place and sense of home – for my sanity and more so for son, to start to feel settled and safe in a new home as soon as possible.
The kids were my top priority, exploring options of changing schools and home vs staying where we were. Evaluating the pro/cons of each and also the financial feasibility. I was lucky enough that my Mr Ex was supportive (at least in the beginning) to keep us in our home so that they were not impacted. Some are not so lucky.
3. What were the first steps you took in relation to your kids?
The first thing I did when I realised that the separation was a certain, was to research “how to tell your child”. It’s different with each individual circumstance and the style of conversation changes with the Childs ages, but there are some basic fundamentals that stay the same.
1. Mum and Dad still Love you no matter what
2. We will always be your mum and dad, that won’t change.
3. This is not your fault, and its not your job to try and fix it.
4. Things will be a little different, and it’s normal for you to feel frustrated, sad, angry, and confused though this change. Just try and be aware of that and try and talk to us about how you feel.
I actually wrote a guide script and a list of possible questions and answers to be prepared and not caught off guard. In basic terms – letting them know they are loved and reassuring them as much as you can.
I tried to keep the routine as normal as possible for them and also tried to schedule in as much time as my Mr Ex would agree to see them (this was a challenge in itself because he had found new freedom and devoured it). In hindsight, I may have over compensated for my Mr Ex not being around by driving myself to the bone going back to work full time (from part time) to be able to keep the family home.
My day started at 6am for work, and ended around 11pm trying to prepare and cook for the next day (still maintaining dinner, bath, story time, bed time and then meal prep/cleaning house for the next day all with minimal family help). It was consuming and took its toll on me physically losing approx. 12kg within a short period of time!
4. Did you feel the need to explore going back to your relationship or were you DONE?
After separating, no. I was too hurt and angry. Now? 4 years on, we both get along well and are rediscovering our relationship as friends and co-parents. Im not someone to never say never, but it would have to feel right on all accounts. Life throws all sorts of craziness at you – Im excited to find out what or who is out there to start something new and fresh and exciting. Im a romantic at heart.
I love falling in love, being in love and all of that.
Sure I love hot sweaty sex as much as anyone, but in the end, it comes down to the hugs, kisses and spooning too.
In the early days I may have flitted from going over our decisions and our actions but I knew that it was the right thing (based on my situation) to do than prolong a situation where the ending would have been the same but perhaps allowed it to take longer.
5. What advice would you give someone that has JUST separated?
Surround yourself with a good core group of friends. The good from the bad will filter out quicker than you think and sometimes its a surprise which friends are more supportive.
There are the ones that offer genuine support and listen with empathic ears. AND…. The ones who just want to push their advice on to you, whether you like it or not, and the ones who just want to know how you are going on Tinder. Last thing, be prepared for your first swap over day, where you hand your child back to the other parent – this can hit hard, so plan to catch up with friends, or take yourself out of your natural environment. Big Love. You are not alone.
Ben started writing the Single Dad Journey because friends and friends of friends started asking questions about his life as a single parent and how he coped. It’s a mix of real, raw honest personal truths and a good dose of humour.
When it came to the kids’ I found that keeping everything ROUTINE and consistent as much as possible REALLY helped! Also plan catch-up’s on your weekend free so that the loneliness starts to disappear and so that you have something to look forward to!
Find new things to TRY, this will fill in empty time when your kids go to your Ex, this also helps make new friends and potentially grow emotionally! WIN-WIN.
- Be kind to yourself!
- Try something NEW!
- Maintaining regular routines for younger kids as close to pre-separation worked!
- Surround yourself with a support TRIBE!
- Get EXCITED about finding more about YOURSELF in this journey!
ABOUT the Blogger:
Ben: Ben Dillon-Smith is an award winning freelance creative – who writes, produces, directs and acts. Sometimes all at once. He hasn’t won any awards for being a single dad, but it’s the job he finds most rewarding.
Zoe: Anonymous, Mum of 2. Endured the cruelty of life and found a wonderful life post separation!
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